carpedick

Ok, so yesterday started out sucking. I found out that more transactions had gone through before I had a chance to cover them by making a deposit, which amounted to about $63 in overdraft charges. This totally sucked….however…

Later on that night I get a frantic call from my mom that I need to come over. I come over, and there ya have it, they gave us a check for the car, for the amount that it helped them save in taxes, $1000….sweet…then today I go in to deposit that and Jason’s paycheck, and find that his tax refund has been deposited, another 200 or so dollars, super sweet, and then in a week or so we’re supposed to be getting our money back from the dealers…mega super sweet. So, right now we’re up by about $1700. Now we have more than enough money for our trip to Arizona, I was worried there for a bit. Anyways, catch ya on the flip side….ta ta…

ok, so last night was vicious….it all started with Derek coming over. Jason tells me that he’s coming over “real quick” to iron his clothes for going out tonight. This turns into Derek coming in, watching a little tv, then starting to make dinner, then going into our bathroom to shave his legs. DOES THE BOY NOT HAVE A FREAKIN HOME!!?!?!?!….WTF, who comes over to their friends house and shaves their legs, especially when he was supposed to iron and get the fuck out. It’s soooooo annoying. The next time Jason says he’s coming over, I’m telling him that I don’t want him to, it’s too much hassle. Especially since every time he comes over it’s a constant reminder that he owes us over $1000 and doesn’t seem to give a crap about paying us back. I.E. always commenting on having enough money to go to SF or buying something new or whatever.

Anyways, so that led into Jason and I having a big ole fight, talking about leaving and whatnot. It’s a combination of frustrations really. His frustration over wanting to go out and me either not wanting to or us not having the extra money, or my frustration over him continuously asking to go out and then having to explain the same reasons over and over again and him getting pissy at me because of something that I can’t control.

It’s really a common theme in all our fights, usually due to the fact that I’ve given him a reason for something and he gets upset over and over about it, and the reason never changes and 9 times out of 10 it’s a damn good reason, and usually out of my control and none of this seems to change him getting pissy at me. It also didn’t help that he asked me if we could go out again last night, when he knows very well that he doesn’t give a crap what I say. If he asks if we can go out he means if he can go out and if I want to tag along that’s fine. And I keep asking him, why even ask me if the question isn’t about us, if it’s just about me and you’re going to do what you want to do regardless. And then he gets all pissy and tells me, I’m being a dick. I don’t think so, I’m just asking for some common decency, treat me like I’m not stupid, or at least recognize WTF you’re doing.

Anyways, everything ended up coming out ok in the end, we rearranged some furniture in the living room to give us a little more ease in moving around. Then this morning, after me asking him to come to bed early, and me falling asleep, I find out that he was up till 230 talking online. Then he has the nerve to tell me that he only talked to 2 of his friends. I’m sorry, but 2 hours online, is hardly filled by talking to 2 people, to stay on that long requires talking to multiple people and surfing considerable websites. It’s just annoying that he can’t just come out and be honest with me. It’s like he doesn’t even realize that when I get pissed off about stuff like this, which then causes him to be even more recluse about telling me the truth, that it’s not the fact that he chatted with someone, it’s the fact that he fuckin lied about it.

Anyways, today is kinda slow, the whole war thing is already boring, with news reports going on all day long, just reiterating the same thing over and over again, just in different orders and with occasional new facts thrown in here and there. Chat more later…

I have been horrible about updating this thing and I’m sure as hell never going to get anyone interested in my life if I keep skipping out on it. I feel bad though, cuz every time I look at my friends journal it’s always so interesting and fun to read and mine just seems pitiful by comparison, even though he’s about the same age as me. I guess it’s cuz he was still single until not too long ago and since he lives at home and has tons more money to do stuff with. Who knows maybe someday I could get lucky enough to be in a situation like that.

Dang and I just remembered that this past Saturday I wanted to go out and I didn’t even think about asking him, not that it would’ve been required since he seems to be at Faces every week.

Anyways, not to go off on a tangent, but the fact is that things have been going ok. Jason and I got officially Domestically Partnered in December and since then things have been about the same. We were stressing for a few months, because Jason quit his job at Subways at the opportunity to start at Verizon, through a local temp agency. The temp agency flaked out and he was left for a while with no job and no income and was finding it hard to get anything. When he finally did end up getting something it was a crap job through a “Advertising Firm”. I use that term very loosely since it was basically door to door sales, commission based only. All of this was not told to him for quite a while. He found out about the door to door thing pretty quickly, but the commission based wasn’t revealed until about 2 weeks into the process. Needless to say he quit that job and moved on to try and find something else. Finally he did, he now works at Coco Moka in front of Macy’s DTP. ::gasp:: a gay boy working at Macy’s?!?! whoda thunk. So things are going good for him there and it seems to be working out in a good way. They’re even talking about promoting him and having him manage a new store in SD. But who knows where that’ll end up.

right now I’m kinda bummed, cuz I just found out that we got turned down for financing on the new rings that we wanted to pick up. One of which I’ve been drooling over for years, but I guess I’ll have to wait on that one for a little while. Hafta save up some money for a bit.

One of the funniest things that happened of late was when Jason told me about the fact that one of his friends who works at Destination Sacramento told him that Matt, my ex that works there, had told her not to talk to him. How weird is that? She told J and told Matt that Jason’s a great guy and that since Matt doesn’t even know Jason that he shouldn’t talk out of his ass. I thought it was hilarious that the boy is still hung up on that whole thing. It’s sad really when you think about it.

But alas that is all I have. I’ll put a link to this from my main page so I can start actually making sure to update it daily, or at least more often then currently. Catch y’all later…